Control & descontrol

Abstract

During the course of my career, two patterns of behavior were revealed that ended up being developed in the thesis: control and recklessness. In this process, certain ways of operating in my work space were identified, where in some I feel that I exercise control and in others I simply let myself be carried away by foreign events to my free will and, without objecting, I let the inevitable become part of the work. For example, when I start a work, I must have the space completely organized and eliminate any object in sight that is not indispensable for the development of the work. However, throughout the entire process, I allow the work to be permeated by "accidental" facts or events that are not and will not be under my control but in some cases end up being a factor that determines the unavoidable. My past works have led me to reflect on how I want to be in control of everything that is within my reach, be it the strokes, the paints I apply, the rituals of behavior, what gives me comfort. Therefore, it is important for me to show part of those processes and roles that have built me, so that it is possible to understand a little of the artist that I am today and what is being built for tomorrow. Analyzing the whole process I have been through so far, I know that I did not choose this work; it chose me. I know I am sinning of cliché but I feel that life has led me on this path, I feel that I have been dragging a process. I have been trying to understand who and what I am for many years now. In this work I intend to explore and embrace the lack of control, where I start from what I know, from my way of seeing things, controlling to some extent the matter, with the aim of letting go, to lose control and see how beyond my actions, the matter begins to transform and take directions that neither I nor anyone else can know.